I feel lost
Words are not flowing
Inspiration doesn’t seem to show up
I am depressed
I know I will come out and insight will be given
I just wanna feel happy today
Everything I thought I was is not
What am I to do with these things I know
How can this emptiness be so
My gifts were written in the stars
I was told I would know
All things reveled in time
That I would leave my mark
That all would flow together when ready
I was to seek that which defines my bubble
To impact and love the world
To forever more be the change
Showing the difference
All things in good time
The wait is hard
I drift along seeking
Not belonging in a sense that matters
I offer nothing to be of value
While this wait continues
The anxiousness is there
Consuming me, impressing me
I look and ask for guidance
I pull tarot cards for answers
I ask for truth, for help
Oh in my despair
The tears they do flow
Down my checks and across my heart
Why is it only me who doesn’t know
My life purpose, that I want to show
Did I miss the signs along the way
Lessons learned time and time again
Seeds sown, harvests reaped
Many times over again
The winds of change are here
I can feel them, see them
The messages are becoming loud and clear
Change is evident for me
Bigger than I have ever known
I realize the process I am in
Is needed and yet not wanted
Yet, the transformation from this
Is what I seek and know
Will be the best thing for me
So in the meantime I hold on
To the knowing that
All is working in perfect timing and
All is and will continue to be well in my world
J.K.M. July 2013